Some Advice (Seriously)
I was reading Telebush’s blog, and came across an article he wrote about his self image that struck a chord in me. To give you some background, he’s a former marine who is now getting the higher education that is beneficial to everyone that wants to enter the private workforce. The problem he’s having is one that I think most military have once being discharged from their country’s service. He feels that he’s not being challenged and wonders about his abilities in general (physical, mental, etc.). He was looking for advice on what he could do to feel some self worth and I’m offering some advice.
There was a time shortly after I left the Army that I wanted to get back in. When I received emails from my buddies talking about fire fights and throwing lead into Iraq(u)i’s faces, I wanted to jump into the fray. I never had the chance to be a part of a fire fight, my real world missions were quite uneventful. Why would I want to be a part of it? Because it’s the ultimate test. You and your team pitted against other people and second place receives their medal posthumously. You train so long to fight, that you actually look forward to getting a chance to do it, to find out how tough you are, to find out if you had what it takes to win a battle. I don’t have that as an option anymore. My life belongs to my wife, and she needs me to be the man and take care of her. Although some soldiers can balance a wife and children (B-Cack), I know that I don’t have the strength to do it. Telebush, on the other hand, is currently going to school and really has no one depending on him other than himself. There is nothing stopping him from re-enlisting, other than the opportunity to gain a degree. He’s not feeling challenged by this, and something is missing that he wants to find; a chance to see how much he can take.
So here is my advice for what it’s worth. Finish school. This should be primary goal number one. Get a degree. I can tell you from my own experiences, that there are no jobs in the civilian world for trained killers (the mob doesn’t advertise job openings). Now to help with the immediate problem, find a contact sport that would allow you to compete. True this is only facsimile of real battle but it will exercise the same mental and physical skills that you would have to use. I suggest boxing, jujitsu (they started teaching that in the Army when I got in), or any martial art really. This might be able to give you some outlet for the aggressiveness and competitiveness that you have until after you finish your schooling. I would say boxing would probably be the best choice because of the way the training works and you wouldn’t have to travel to go to bouts.
If after you finish your degree you still crave the challenge, look into going back into the military, but as a warrant officer or an officer, or look at going into the CIA or FBI. With a degree doors will open. Of course this is all dependent on how things work out for you within the next few years. You might find what you are looking for and not need this type of challenge by the time you graduate. If I’m way off on my assessment, then just ignore my advice.